Starting to love, starting to hate.

I'm getting really involved with SPA nowadays. Training has been like a short getaway for me. Being able to just sweat everything out without a care in the world, it makes me too exhausted to think about anything. But on the other hand, there's someone there that makes me feel insecure at times.

I know its my own sensitivity and I'm just being obsessed but some stuff have happened too many times/ I really don't wanna take chances any more. Gotta control myself well and not cross the line. I really wanna be good friends.

Today they also announced the dates for the land expedition and I'm freaking upset I can't go for it because of Poly Forum. I really wanted to go, wanted to push myself and test my limits. And most of all, wanted to spend time with all my friends and strengthen our bond even further but...

I know I have to set my priorities straight so it's really just too bad for me. And honestly, I just might start regretting joining CASS club. =(