After so long.

So today's training was rather emotional for me. It started off with a surprise from my lovely friends then continued on to me a gruelling, tiresome run and physical condition. It then dived down all the way to pure simple disappointment.

Am I really not worth fighting for? It may seem like a small thing to them but it really hurt my feelings and all that followed was excuses. Spoiled my mood and my stomach wasn't helping either. But it got worse. After training ended and I checked my phone, I saw stuff I wished I could avoid forever.

And what follows just got worse and worse. In a really bad mood now. Waiting for the right person to ask me what happened. For now, i'll just drown in self-pity I guess.