I thought I said I wouldn't

OMG. I haven't been blogging recently because it would be just shit load of emo crap and I told myself I wouldn't broadcast all my fucking useless problems to the whole world. But today is really the limit. I cannot hold it in any longer.

There is A LOT of things you have done to cause sadness, hurt, disappointment and frustration and yet you do not have a clue. The reason in simple, I am not as important to you as you are to me. I have already gotten this fact and have already accepted. But the worse thing is, I don't fucking mind. I would rather be worth SOMETHING rather than NOTHING. This is my selfish-ness that I can't control, the hurt that I wanna inflict on myself.

So why the hell am I whining? I BROUGHT THIS ALL UPON MYSELF. But still, I can't help but hope for more.